Commemoration

It has been more than a month since you left me.

A year ago when I first set sight on you, I knew that at that instance, we were meant to be together. Up until that point in time, I never knew you existed and fate played her hand that we should be together. For that I am truly grateful.

We have been together for one whole year and during that period of time, you helped me tremendously not only in my career and studies but also in the way of how life should be. You are my companion during the times when I am alone. All those memories we had, all those journey stages that we had gone through together strengthen me to be a better person.

However, I took you for granted and thought that you will always be there for me in supporting and giving that extra help that I need. Yes, I am delusional in thinking that you will never leave me. Delusional indeed.

Partly I am to blame for not taking care of you better although I understand that you are forced to leave me. It is not by your own free will but are forcibly taken away from me and possibly violated. I could have prevented it. If only I am more paranoid but instead I choose to believe that there are still hope and kindness in humans refusing to believe that human beings today are "ugly" at its very core.

I still believe that humans are born good natured. It is the environment and situation that force the changes to happen. Nevertheless, I have learned my lesson to not trust people easily. I deeply regret that I did not appreciate you more when you are still with me.

Yes, humans are strange. They will only come to realize the importance to them after it is gone and more than often it is too late to repent or rectify what had happened.

Ever since you left me, I realized that the most important and precious thing that I missed about you is not your physical appearance but your insides. After all, like the saying goes, "Beauty is only skin deep". What you have inside of you is what matters the most. You are important to me because of what you had inside of you.

Now, I have accepted the fact that you will be gone forever. If I can turn back the time, I would do so without hesitations but alas I am only a human, a mortal.


The following is an "epitaph" made specially to commemorate you.

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In Loving Memory to

The Pheonix

Partner and Companion

Gone 15th November 2007

Aged 1 year

Gone, but not forgotten,

Rest assured that,

KARMA and RETRIBUTION shall PREVAIL

=p